Space

Today, is no different than any other day where I find myself with very little energy but big plans.  I've not figured out how people in New York with toddlers balance everything.  It's proven to be quite hard and I do miss so aspects of my old life, like being able to log 40-60 hours in my studio, work a 9-5(9-4 in the summer) and still hit the bar for a night cap.

Now I have a full routine that seemly runs from 6am to about 9pm and if I am lucky and there aren't lot of dishes.  After 9, it's time to be creative. Well most nights that what I think while I'm washing dishes, then bottles and then the rest of the dishes.  I finially sit down on the couch and most nights turn on the television to watch my latest anime. Oh wait, I only actually watch about half of it and slowly my head is pulled closer to the seat cushions of the couch and I'm sleep. 

As I dream, I wonder if the inspiration has left and only to realise it hasn't. Then how can i bring myself to create work at home and in my studio.  At home all of my old spots have been taken over by the baby and her mountain of stuff or other random other stuff.  Guess I should go to my studio, but damn that's about 17 mins away on bike.  That place has changed as well, after sandy filled it with two feet of water. The energy is gone and it's been hard to get it back going.  I remember one statement from my undergraduate professor, 'you have to make art all the time especially when you don't want to.' Well, I shall try if I don't fall asleep on the couch first.